Saturday, December 8, 2012

Day 7: Your Ex

I'd like to address this letter to all of my exes, to protect their identities...

Hey Guys!

This could go one of two ways, I could either totally bash you for how terrible you were to me or we could go over all the things that I learned from you.  I think that a little bit of both is appropriate.

Let's start with the terrible, shall we?

I am the type of person that falls hard, and I am also the kind of person who cares about other people sometimes more than myself.  This combo creates a situation that can be easily taken advantage of by less than stellar men.  A few of you have completely taken advantage of that, and some of you did so unknowingly.  This combination makes for an incredible heartbreak.  Unfortunately, I am also that girl that when she has a few too many glasses of wine thinks its a good idea to send you a text and see what you're doing.  That is never ever a good idea, sorry about that I am sure its super annoying.  I think that the worst part is when some of you come back into my lives randomly, it was worse when I wasn't completely over some of you but it still stings.  Just like every girl, I imagine, I have had several tear filled nights over some of you.

Alright, enough of the bad on to the good.  You all have taught me so much about who I am and what I want.  In the middle of these relationships my self esteem was so tied to you that the second something went wrong I went into a downward spiral.  Since then I have learned more about my self worth and that sometimes it is ok that I am selfish and taking time for myself is not selfish it's necessary.  I also learned what kind of guy I want in the future.  Not to say that it is someone that is opposite of all you guys, its actually small parts of you all put together.  I am grateful for that, because I try to always take something away from a failed situation, it makes you a better person.

Thanks for being in my life and teaching me something.  I hope you all are happy in your current situations.