I need to start this post on a complete side note. I have the best friends ever. I know you might think you have the best friends ever, you don't. Mine are better. I won't go into specifics because they know who they are but, they are the most supportive group of women I've met and I met most of them when I was 18--or younger. Its our 10 year friendiversary and I am so grateful that I have them in my life.
So, instead of worrying about The One, forget about that and be The One You Would Want To Be With. Go running every night, smile at every person you meet, pick up that James Joyce novel you’ve been putting off, start writing again, join a support group to work out your issues, go back to get another degree, help old ladies cross the street, work on forgiving your parents, take Tai Chi to learn to let go, get involved at the local community center and/or take a cooking class. Push yourself to get out and be better; you can’t control who you meet, but you can control the person you are when you meet them. You probably won’t find perfect (and no one wants that, because as Celeste and Jesse Forever shows, perfect is boring). However, you might find something a lot better than what you could have even imagined when you were twelve and making silly lists. You’ll find the thing you didn’t know you were looking for all along