I'll do this when...

I had a bit of an epiphany this week in yoga {that sounds so cliche, but it happened}.  As I was meditating in savasana I was thinking about big events in my life that have yet to happen and then I thought about my role in the non-action in these areas.  If you read this blog often you'll know that I am extremely Type A and I am always thinking about what to do next and what steps I need to take to get there.  Then I thought about one of my favorite exchanges from The Wedding Date:

Kat: So you say here "every woman has the exact love life that she wants."  That's a pretty broad generalization don't you think? Do you honestly believe I want to be single and miserable? Do you think I want to be hung up on a guy that lead me on for years and out of the blue shattered my heart?
Nick: First of all, there's not such thing as out of the blue.  And second, yeah, when you're ready to let go, to be un-single and un-miserable, you will, till then...

While I don't have a guy that broke my heart out of the blue, I do have a few things I think are holding me back from being completely available.  I have this picture in my head of what I will look like when I do certain life events, like I'll look like this when I meet the man of my dreams, I'll do so and so when I have achieved this in my career.  When I was thinking about that I thought, what in my life am I missing out on because I am waiting for the perfect time instead of letting life happen.  Don't get me wrong I think it is VERY important to set reasonably achievable goals and to work hard, otherwise I wouldn't be where I am now.  But this Type A-overacheiver is going to take some time with what is left in 2012 (and on the advice of a very important/always right person in my life) to say yes to things I would normally say no too!