Sunday, August 26, 2007


Well, this certainly is an interesting transition that you have to embark on after leaving college. I wasn't prepared for the emotional swings that occur when you have no idea what you are going to do next. I thought I had everything figured out. SUPRISE! I didn't...

I really have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life. OK thats not really fair I have some ideas, but they are on such a wide spectrum that I don't know what step to take next. And while everyone is telling me that it is OK that I have no life direction, that's not OK for me. It's not like I am not having fun, don't get me wrong, I am having a great time, going on Monday nights and hanging out in general, but I feel like I am treading water and not moving forward.

While all of this stress is coming out with my "career ambitions" I am also stressing about whats going on in my personal life. Currently there are people in my life that I am really close with. This person in particular has over the past year been there for me whenever I've needed someone. Consequentially they are they second person I want to talk to as soon as something inevidably goes wrong in my life (the first is my mom). Keeping that in mind this person and I are currently on opposite sides of the US and I miss them terribly and I dont know what to do about it.

I have never been in a situation such as this. I literally can tell this person anything and it makes me really sad to think we may not ever live in the same place again, unless I take some action...